As with many things, time alone can cure some of the angst and distress that comes to most kids when their parents break up. But whilst the pain eases for the kids perhaps so too does the desire to keep contact with both parents, or maybe it’s just the classic cats in the cradle stuff, the natural pulling away as you get older and become more independent.
We built a big house because at the time we entered into the contract we had four of the six kids we have between us that needed a place to live. Over the months of waiting for the title to settle and the house to be built their needs changed and so we have a four bedroom house occupied by the two of us and the two furkids and in an area now far away from where the kids mostly reside.
And that’s OK, the place is there if some time in the future they need it, but there are times when I miss knowing what is happening in their lives. It seems that unless I make a call then we don’t talk and I am left to watching facebook for updates.
Last week I asked my two daughters if they would like to set aside one Sunday evening per month, visit us for dinner and watch a movie. I was actually hoping that maybe we would just sit around the dinner table and chat and just find out who they were loving or feuding with, what books they were reading or movies they had seen, any one of hundreds of mundane day to day things that they do. One daughter said she heard me but it would have to wait awhile because she’s working a lot of overtime and very busy but I did find out on Facebook that she enjoyed her day at the Races and her roast dinner at her mothers in the past few days. Daughter number two has been silent and that usually means I am in the bad books with her.
It got me thinking that if they spent 3 hours one day a month with me that would be a total of 1 and a half days a year. If I live as long as my father (and I hope it is longer than that) then I have 22 years left and that would mean that for the rest of my life I would spend a maximum of 33 days with my kids, half of which I would probably be sleeping.
So if the remainder of my life was equivalent to an hour on a clock for every month that passes without seeing them the clock advances another two minutes and we all know that as you get older time speeds up and the 33 days will rapidly become 30 and then 20 and 5, until those last few precious minutes come in a huge rush.
And knowing all that makes me regret the times I didn’t call my own Mum and Dad other than on the special occasions. So maybe what goes around…