Hard to believe that it was a year ago today that I last saw you. A lot has happened in that time. I left my job, went to another company that ended up in liquidation and found a new job as a contractor but am likely to be put onto a long term contract in the next few weeks.
The new house has been built and Raels and I have been here now for 6 weeks. Funny but it is home already unlike the last couple of places I've lived. Maybe that's because we've built this from scratch. I wish I could have shown you what it's like.
I imagine you riding off on that horse you told us about in the last few days. I don't know where that came from because I don't ever remember you talking much about wanting to ride horses despite loving to bet on them. Maybe that was the little girl speaking.
Karen, Deb and I celebrated Christmas together last year like we always used to, but I think that may well have been the last time we'll do that. You were the glue that held that together and I'm guessing that we'll probably not find the time to do it too often in the future given the kids have grown and will be splitting time between the new families they'll make over the next few years. Karen is off to Queensland this year to spend Christmas with Jacob and Jenna, Luke may be back In Adelaide and your other grandkids are also starting to spread their wings. Spending time with old Aunties and Uncles doesn't seem as important as when they were little. But don't worry about that, it's just part of growing older.
Funny but I was really conscious of you and Dad being gone last Christmas, my first as an orphan, and my first Easter and Mother's Day this year followed by my first birthday. Weird being a 54 year old orphan. Sometimes I get a bit taken aback looking at the old bloke in the mirror because it's not how I see myself.
I know what you meant now when you said that there wasn't a day go by when you didn't think of Nana and Grandad because it's the same with me. I miss you both very much and wish I'd told you that more often.
You gave me a great start to life Mum and I will be forever grateful for that. Sure there were moments, but we had a great upbringing. I always knew you were proud of me even if I didn't know why.
Thanks Mum. I love you very much and miss you terribly
Love Laurie XXX