Thursday, December 25, 2008
This year marks another change in what Christmas has been and if I look back over the past 4 I can see each one was very different. 2005 was the last of my old family Christmases. 2006 was marked by me spending Christmas lunch alone. Last year was the first with my new partner and the last time I will go to the home of my old family for Christmas mornings. It was also marked by my treatment as a ghost by a number of people who didn't acknowledge my presence on that day. That experience continued during the year with old friends deciding to terminate contact with me for reasons they know but I fail to understand.
This year, probably by the time anyone actually reads this post, my kids are coming to my place for breakfast. My new partners family is arriving for a mid morning breakfast, after which we will eat alone again. Last year we actually took the dog for a walk on Christmas Day, this year with an extra dog we may do the same. And later in the afternoon my family will arrive for dinner, for the first time in my new home.
So new traditions begin and the old can go their own ways. Maybe paths will cross again some day. Maybe not. But if I've learnt anything over the past few years it is not to take things personally and not to make assumptions. To do either simply leads to that old familiar bitter and twisted sort of feeling and life is way to short to dwell on the past.
Merry Christmas everyone from this person who was once a ghost and who is now prepared to live again.